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Mister I
Almaz
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 Posted: Fri Feb 01, 2008 8:24 pm
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Ah...but there lies the problem: within the individuals. I have tried to blend in with many a social crowd, with my own flair, of course, and am always rejected and alone. Every individual and group, sans very few who are dragged in to their own groups...gone. Foreign. Another obstacle. I'm always dragged down farther...into the depths of their flaws...their idiocy...my ever-so-constant headaches.
It's awful for me to harbor such thoughts, I know that. But...I feel I can't stop. I've tried nearly every suggested method, and it's lead to consistant failure, an area I am disgusted to live on. I suppose my mental strengths are my emotional weaknesses, but...I just can't seem to make them stop.
I'm sorry for continuing this conversation, CD, I really do. You are a genius when it comes to human emotion and are able to connect on any and all necessary levels. You're much better than any professional I know.  |
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Strawberry-san
Celeste Dimentia
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| Posted: Fri Feb 01, 2008 8:46 pm
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Goomba, you do a fine job as a Moderator. You haven't hurt the forum in any way at all. I really don't know what else to say, because if you ask me, it's really as simple as that. Try to feel better about yourself, because it's not a lie to do so. Your positive aura may reflect well with others, too. Gloom can be infectious sometimes. 
| Mister I wrote: | Ah...but there lies the problem: within the individuals. I have tried to blend in with many a social crowd, with my own flair, of course, and am always rejected and alone. Every individual and group, sans very few who are dragged in to their own groups...gone. Foreign. Another obstacle. I'm always dragged down farther...into the depths of their flaws...their idiocy...my ever-so-constant headaches.
It's awful for me to harbor such thoughts, I know that. But...I feel I can't stop. I've tried nearly every suggested method, and it's lead to consistant failure, an area I am disgusted to live on. I suppose my mental strengths are my emotional weaknesses, but...I just can't seem to make them stop.
I'm sorry for continuing this conversation, CD, I really do. You are a genius when it comes to human emotion and are able to connect on any and all necessary levels. You're much better than any professional I know. |
You don't need to be sorry, I'm glad to be able to talk with people like this instead of acting goofy like I do in school whenever I'm around... certain people. I have a very cynical sense of humor, very random, I remember not being able to control it as much when I was younger. So, I was always the weird dumbass throughout elementary school, and I can't say that earned me any good reputation. Hell, I talked to my eraser that was shaped like a shark in 6th Grade. But then, nobody else would really talk to me. I'm not good looking, and can be awkward, though I think I've gotten a little better since those times. Thing is, I only have perhaps four real friends at school. It's difficult for me to blend in with other groups when I stand out considerably - I'm determined to try and be myself. I've joined a Speech and Debate class, though, with minds that are intelligent, stimulating, fun to be around. So I'm glad I've done that.
Significant factor about me: I've immersed myself heavily in fantasy, and all aspects of it, since I was young. I think I've preferred it over reality sometimes. But then I don't want to lose myself, denying reality in an unhealthy and harmful manner to myself and perhaps even others.
Waaaah, off the tangent about me though (I'm a freak anyway, I prefer being considered a girl rather than a guy, but then I wasn't born one, and... eh, never mind):
You don't have to put on a mask like I have for these people who aren't like you. Actually, it's a very good thing, in my opinion, to blend with and get to know people who are different from you in all kinds of ways. But the main thing here is that they're not willing to accept you, even if you are willing to accept them, and you really don't need to deal with that if you don't want to. You can find people, I'm sure, who can connect with and relate to you some way, somehow. Look at what we've come across on Digibutter.
I speak with my Psychology/Sociology teacher in private sometimes - he's a truly good person. He even loves Harry Potter as much as I do. =P He's given me some wise counsel, I think. He's young, and likes to keep his spirit young, so he can connect very well. And he does it with complete sincerity. I suppose I'm mentioning this because again, there are people in the world who you CAN connect to. Whether you look for them or not... But I suggest that you keep on looking! Be on the watch as you ride through your life with each passing day, and time's flow. There is that ray of light, as I've mentioned. And it also helps if you become a source of light yourself.
And there's probably more I can say right now, but I'll hit Submit Post anyway because it's trailed away a little bit. >.< |
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Mister I
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| Posted: Fri Feb 01, 2008 8:52 pm
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Ah, and NOW who's profiling based on general perception. 
I'll state it simply: I'm picky, and I've explored every option...I've broadcasted imbelicy and overacting on a schoolwide news broadcast. But, the only people I get adoration from...are those over the age of 25! And I'm not exactly going quite that far...
I suppose, in a very blunt summation, you're saying "suck it up, keep living, find someone". Well, I found digibutter...but it doesn't seem to be such an everlasting solution. I suppose I must just wait for the storm to blow over and seek out survivors.
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Strawberry-san
Celeste Dimentia
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| Posted: Fri Feb 01, 2008 8:55 pm
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Yes, I guess I'm a hypocrite. I'm very confused about who I am right now, what's real and what's a lie, or a mask. Eek. ._. |
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Tails Doll
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| Posted: Fri Feb 01, 2008 9:00 pm
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| Chaos Dimentio wrote: | | Yes, I guess I'm a hypocrite. I'm very confused about who I am right now, what's real and what's a lie, or a mask. Eek. ._. |
Excluding the laws of psychics and space, there isn't too many things in life that are "real" or "false". Human opinion makes less than a quintillionth of this whole universe. |
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Strawberry-san
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| Posted: Fri Feb 01, 2008 9:04 pm
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| Sandslash wrote: | | Chaos Dimentio wrote: | | Yes, I guess I'm a hypocrite. I'm very confused about who I am right now, what's real and what's a lie, or a mask. Eek. ._. |
Excluding the laws of psychics and space, there isn't too many things in life that are "real" or "false". Human opinion makes less than a quintillionth of this whole universe. |
I do consider pretty much everything to be a matter of perception. But I'm just making a statement about myself that I, at least, consider "true." |
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Nimexa, The Gentle Breeze
Dark Prognosticus
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I've been feeling disconnected from my home, F6 Forums.
This one person told me that it is someone's fault esides my own,a dn they acted as a 'trigger'.
I got in a fight with my best friend before, and I think that casued my sadness..... I can't forgive him afer what he did, but I don't know how to be connected again.... |
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Mister I
Almaz
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| Posted: Fri Feb 01, 2008 9:06 pm
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Well, what makes you question your being? This is GROUP therapy after all, not CHAOS DIMENTIO'S ULTRA-HEALING TOPIC...WITH MAGIC! |
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Tails Doll
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| Posted: Fri Feb 01, 2008 9:07 pm
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| Chaos Dimentio wrote: | | Sandslash wrote: | | Chaos Dimentio wrote: | | Yes, I guess I'm a hypocrite. I'm very confused about who I am right now, what's real and what's a lie, or a mask. Eek. ._. |
Excluding the laws of psychics and space, there isn't too many things in life that are "real" or "false". Human opinion makes less than a quintillionth of this whole universe. |
I do consider pretty much everything to be a matter of perception. But I'm just making a statement about myself that I, at least, consider "true." |
Oh. Well, one of the biggest obstacles in life is finding out who you are. Along with being who you want to be. |
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Strawberry-san
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| Posted: Fri Feb 01, 2008 9:14 pm
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| Mister I wrote: | | Well, what makes you question your being? This is GROUP therapy after all, not CHAOS DIMENTIO'S ULTRA-HEALING TOPIC...WITH MAGIC! |
Just feel like I'm a guy physiologically. Not in spirit, heart, personality... who I am inside, I guess you could call it. But then I wonder if I'm just denying who I really am. Then again, it feels right... but people can get weirded out by me saying I'd rather be a girl. >.> |
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Mister I
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| Posted: Fri Feb 01, 2008 9:23 pm
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Then it should please you to know that I am a feminist! While I do generally support the female gender more than the male gender, (you don't know how many people think I'm gay...) it's the atributes that are considered feminine that I enjoy seeing, rather than the body parts (like 95% of all other males I know).
You are a human being who is labeled on a Mario fansite and forum as Chaos Dimentio. There, you have spread much joy and have added magic to many depressed teenager's lives. You are who you are and, whether your gender shows it or not, you're turning into a being who was mentally developed in a specific way for a specific purpose.
As the opinions of others are generally insignificant when it comes to anything farther than social status, you need to strive for your specific form of excellence. The human mind can not comprehend the meaning of life...but we can comprehend that we are ment to follow it, for it is the way that leads to mental and spiritual salvation.
...and I agree with you on the whole "rather being a girl" thing, personally...or maybe I'm gay...or maybe I'm bi? I'm not sure. Life is a highway as an interestingly emotional country music group puts it, and every passing stop brings something new into the little vehicle of a mind you've got. Until you reach that Final Destination, you're just going to keep picking up more and more...so enjoy the ride. |
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Strawberry-san
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| Mister I wrote: | Then it should please you to know that I am a feminist! While I do generally support the female gender more than the male gender, (you don't know how many people think I'm gay...) it's the atributes that are considered feminine that I enjoy seeing, rather than the body parts (like 95% of all other males I know).
You are a human being who is labeled on a Mario fansite and forum as Chaos Dimentio. There, you have spread much joy and have added magic to many depressed teenager's lives. You are who you are and, whether your gender shows it or not, you're turning into a being who was mentally developed in a specific way for a specific purpose.
As the opinions of others are generally insignificant when it comes to anything farther than social status, you need to strive for your specific form of excellence. The human mind can not comprehend the meaning of life...but we can comprehend that we are ment to follow it, for it is the way that leads to mental and spiritual salvation.
...and I agree with you on the whole "rather being a girl" thing, personally...or maybe I'm gay...or maybe I'm bi? I'm not sure. Life is a highway as an interestingly emotional country music group puts it, and every passing stop brings something new into the little vehicle of a mind you've got. Until you reach that Final Destination, you're just going to keep picking up more and more...so enjoy the ride. |
I hate how a woman working the same job as a man, doing the same amount of work output, can still receive significantly less pay than the man. Ugh. There is an immense amount of unfairness in this world. Even if we've improved in some matters, there's still a lot to be done, if you ask me.
I'm glad to know that I've helped at least one person... and your words have again touched me. Thank you, thank you very much. They're very sound, and I can agree. |
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Nimexa, The Gentle Breeze
Dark Prognosticus
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| Posted: Fri Feb 01, 2008 9:42 pm
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I love being ignored as well, really I do. |
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Mister I
Almaz
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| Posted: Fri Feb 01, 2008 9:44 pm
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Yes...and YOU'VE got to help them! Sadly, the world doesn't come packaged with an enclosed instruction booklet, so you've got quite a bit of work if that's your ideal.
And thank you...very much. Coming from you, that means far more than...well, 99% of other people. |
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Francine
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February is a terrible month for me. And it's not just because of the, "OH VALENTINE'S DAY IS A HOLIDAY MADE BY GREETING CARD COMPANIES BLAH BLAH BLAH MAKES US SINGLE PEOPLE FEEL WORSE BLAH BLAH BLAH." It's pretty much the real first anniversary of me "meeting" a boy I almost killed myself over, and for absolutely pathetic reasons over someone who doesn't deserve it. |
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