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[Frozenwinters]

My totally emo thread.

So you all know I knew Warai before this site. At first we didn't get along, blah blah blah. Then she started talking to me, like I was something. She was happy, had a boy-friend and she was in a play. Then some stuff happened, and it seemed like her life was going down hill. And, maybe it wasn't intended, but it brought me down too.

For basically a month, she was depressed, and talking to her always ended with her wanting to kill her self. She'd say things to me like "Toothpaste or Bleach?" basically every second conversation... Soon of course I got use to it, and I hoped that she would never really do it. Of course I was still depressed.

Then I she told me about this site. 6 people seemed to flock there, and I soon made friends with them. It was nice, and a break from her. But maybe it was then that we started to tare apart.

If it wasn't, then this site is the cause. A little while after I joined that site, Mona told me about this place. I lurked for a month, and though... what-ever I'll just join. But after that, it wasn't just "what-ever". I was drawn to it, and I craved it. It seemed like I could get out all could through this site, leaving Warai with half the attention I use to give her. More and more we seperated.

And we try... but it seems doomed. She's not the same, I'm not the same. And even though I try, I seemed to mess it up. And she tries, and I still hold on.

She blames me for this. I blame her.

She thinks our friendship is dying because I'm not the one she used to know. I blame her for not trying.

It's not my fault. I never let her go. I never got mad at her for the sake of getting mad at her. Until recently.

Digibutter. Digibutter. Digibutter.

Are our lives just so depressingly stupid, that the only thing in our lives know is digibutter?

I can only hope she gets her act together.... Or at least that I do...

[MILF with a gun]

You remembered everything? Straight from the beginning?
...
;;

[Dark Prognosticus]

....Do you mind saying the story, Warai? I wanna hear both sides. I mean, even if it is basically the same...

[Frozenwinters]

[MILF with a gun]

Ah, fine...

Well, when I first met her, it was in an MSN conversation with one of our friends, Kami.

Kami wanted me to meet some of her friends, so she invited them to a conversation with us.

I ended up adding FW to my contacts, and stuff, though I never really talked to her
One day after a play and such I was depressed, so I felt like IM'ing her since no one else was online.

I guess thats when we sorta clicked, and became friends.
Then awhile after, Kami, one of my oldest friends, went into a depression mood, and sorta brought me down, too.

Then around that time, I was raeped, too...

I was stressed and everything, of course.
I was talking to FW a lot, then, and I guess I was sorta bringing her down, too.
Then on a Pokemon role play site, someone told her to join Digi, and back then I thought this site was...illiterate.

I lurked on it since she joined, but I guess it just left me more depressed.
I stopped talking to her a lot, and just stuck to my other sites I went on.

It soon came to I was hardly talking to her, so I started being random on the computer, and depressed and such only in real life.

Soon enough I got sick of it, and joined, and stuff...

...
And I can't retell stories well.
D:

[Dark Prognosticus]

I see.... So it was a whole chain thing? Someone depressed you, you Depressed FW and now everyone is sad. D=

Not fun at all... Why did lurking here, and seeing FW here make you more depressed, Warai?

[MILF with a gun]

Eh, a lot of reasons...

It just got me wondering if I was really annoying her that much, if I was that stupid...
Also because I lost a person to talk to, really. ^^;

[Dark Prognosticus]

I see.... Warai, FW said your life started to seem like it was going down-hill... YOu don't have to say anything if you don't want to about it, but what happened?

[MILF with a gun]

It's fine.
...You seem like a counselor.
XD

Well, like I mentioned, I was just depressed, sick of men...
Raeped.
And stuff.

Plus my mother was being annoying, causing me even more stress.

[Count_Bleck]

Oh...I'm sorry you guys are...well...fighting is the only word I can really describe it with.

But....uhh...It umm...sucks that you know...raeped. D:

[MILF with a gun]

It's fine.
I'm pretty much over it now.
^^;

[Dark Prognosticus]

...Reaped?! ._. Er... wow... Sorry to hear that.

And I just am sad to see you two sad and stuff. >_>

[MILF with a gun]

Ah.
Well, we're pretty much over it now.
This all happened 'cause I was a bit frustrated with everything...
^^;

[Dark Prognosticus]

Er... Okay.... If you are sure...

[MILF with a gun]

Yeah, I'm sure.
Thanks for helping.
^^
-Patpat-