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MsDevin92 · Posted: Fri Jun 13, 2008 2:29 pm

So, a few days ago I'd been openly insulted by random strangers (who even asserted their right to do so, because 'I don't have to know you, I just hate you'), I was in my usual frantic 'emo' mood and tried to choke myself with my curtain cord, which has pretty much become a usual attempt by now. But my brothers know how to pick the lock on my door, you see, and my youngest brother- the one who torments me pretty much all day, the spoiled brat- came in because he wanted my laptop (I'd just like to point out that I gave him my old one because he asked, but now he's ranting because of sound bugs and wants my new one). He saw me attempting and instead of showing concern like my parents have, began tormenting me even worse over it. It's like I'm the scum of the earth or something now because at times I get too sad to be aware of what I'm doing. But it's gotten beyond just beating me up for the suicide attempts; now, like every other kid who's ever picked on me, he's jumping on me for every mistake. Today I got a little cheesed off because I forgot my class starts earlier on Friday, and when I tried to explain it to my mom, he told me to just 'shut up about it and go be emo'.

Sigh.
Of course, given my self-esteem level, I can't say I disagree with him. I really am just some whiny fit-throwing bitch.

Dark Prognosticus · Nimexa, The Gentle Breeze

D: You really don't desreve all this, Devin. This is why I hate most people in the world now a days...

And punch your brotehr in the face if he talks to you like that again. I mean, I can understand him making fun of you normally, my brother does that too. But to not care about your life like that sickens me.

MsDevin92 · Posted: Fri Jun 13, 2008 2:37 pm

Dark Prognosticus · Nimexa, The Gentle Breeze

Almaz · Mister I

On the inside, aren't we all just sickening abominations? To someone, some religion, some town, some social group, some country, some alien race, some internet culture, and some organization, we are all an abomination. An atrocity too despicable for this Earth that does not deserve a breath; they just befowl the air around others.

Unfortunately, you're one of the intelligent people who has found out that society is like poison for the heart: your morals slowly become repressed until finally they die out. And therefore, due to deeper understanding (and other, more common features), a broader group is hounding.

You're honestly the strongest person I know. You've gone through more pain, more struggles, more hatred than any human being, no, any five human beings should ever have to go through in their lifetime. And you're willingness to share your emotions...that is beauty.

Thank you for that gift.

As for your current situation...it'll subside. Maybe not for years, but normally if suicide doesn't work after the fifteenth attempt, fate has other plans for us. I speak from experience on that. ^^

Bananatank · Posted: Fri Jun 13, 2008 2:52 pm

Don't listen to your brother. If he annoys you just kick him in the family jewels. It sounds like he doesn't deserve kids anyway.

Super Cyber Mario · Posted: Fri Jun 13, 2008 4:20 pm

Oh wow Devin. Those jack-asses do that to everyone they can, they want to get to you. Those people are the scum of the earth, not you.

MsDevin92 · Posted: Fri Jun 13, 2008 4:50 pm

...Why do random strangers hate me so much?

Dark Prognosticus · Nimexa, The Gentle Breeze

Super Cyber Mario · Posted: Fri Jun 13, 2008 5:07 pm

Medikoopa · Posted: Fri Jun 13, 2008 5:09 pm

Your little brother is evil. How old is he? o_o

As for the strangers, strangers are assholes because they know that since they don't really know you, they think that they can get away with being complete and total dick-heads.

MsDevin92 · Posted: Fri Jun 13, 2008 7:43 pm

Okay, so my day has continued to suck. After school, I tried to go down to the store to get some comfort food, but almost got hit at the red light by this lady who proceeded to yell at us in the middle of the street after my mom pulled me out of the way. Then I ate some French fries and had a huge nosebleed to drink down, which made me nauseous, but not outright sick like I hoped it was.
So now I'm just sitting here listening to Evanescence and being emo.

Barry the Pixl · bloodthirstypedomonster

bobzearth42 · bobz

This is why I hate people. They do nothing but deteriorate others, only because they're not like them.

Try not to listen to them Devin. They may be the ones treating you like scum, when they're the real scum. And your brother? He's no better. Hell, he's your brother for crying out loud! He shouldn't be trying to make fun of your problem, he should be trying to help you. He makes me sick from what you've said...

Look, I'm no help at comforting, but if you ask me, this is just crazy. You're better than all them. They're just a bunch of stupid asses with nothing better to do than try to make you feel bad. So just try to live around them.

And if I said something stupid, just disregard this. D: