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[MsDevin92]

I had been in a pretty good mood for a while. I was helping my dad out with the gardening, I beat Dragon Quest VIII and its secret ending, and it's almost summer vacation. I was even going to invite all of my friends over for a mega-awesome day.
Then I started having nightmares. And not random-theme-but-still-makes-you-scared-as-hell nightmares. I mean nightmares about things that have and still are affecting me. The most recent and most notable one involved me hanging myself in the bathroom by my bathrobe sash. It was too much like one of my past suicide attempts, where I tried to strangle myself with a blanket.
I tried to blot it out, but then I slowly began becoming more moody, depressed, vulnerable, and all around emo again. I've started ragging on myself and am dreading every possible aspect of each day because of the spiral I know I've been taking.
Of course, this is probably just another result of my mood disorder, which will more than likely be haunting me throughout the rest of my life and spoiling any chances I have at long-lived happiness...

[Strong Bad]

Ouch. Sorry to hear that, Dev.

[Black Yoshi]

I know all about nightmares like that... except I am usually not killing myself, someone is doing it for me. Still frightens the hell out of me when I wake up.

I hope this will eventually pass... D: