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[Plastic Mario]

That's right, three days in a row. Because I'm not awesome in any way like that.

So, this entry kinda has a theme. Stuff about me, which you most likely don't know since I've never posted something like this before. It's mostly going to be pointing out my many flaws and crap like that. Think of it as an emo autobiography.

So... I'm 15, male, Canadian, the stuff you already know. I would post a recent picture, if I had a recent picture other than my horrible school picture in which the photographer demanded I remove my headphones. >:C SPITEFUL PLASTIC MARIO.

I've had the same friends for about 6 years, and haven't really made any new ones 'till about this year. There's about 5 more people I'm not exactly friends with, but more of acquaintances.

Computer/electronic entertainment system obsessed, as with most of us. Particularily RPGs. Ever since FFVII, which I first played when I was around 6 years old. Still haven't beaten it, but whatever.

As for music, techno, quick trance, hardstyle and jpop, as I mentioned in my previous entry/rant.

Completely antisocial during class, worst group worker in the school, and famous for never uttering a word except when the teacher asks me for something. And the interesting part is that I have the most severe ADHD and OCD that my doctor has ever seen, who's been practicing for about 30 years. Square Enix owes me royalties for making Neku IDENTICAL to me, minus appearance and super special psych powers.

I've won a couple minor awards for a few writing works, which I did not deserve in any way, and still don't. It's still the only way for me to get every bit of inspiration in me out without needing skill with a pencil. They usually start good, but completely sank after that. Pair me up with someone who's an amazing writer but can never start a story off good, and we'd have published novels. Speaking of which, I actually had an offer to get a short story of mine published, but it contained so many references to stuff that I'd get sued. Grah.

Now... Since I was reeeally young, I always had a thirst for knowledge. I was a freakin' genius kid at around 5 years old, and it lasted until I was about 12. I got so confident in my intelligence and thought I was so far above everyone else that I just stopped bothering with learning anything not taught in school. Subconcious egomaniac, if you will. Now I'm at an average intelligence for my grade, maybe a biiiit higher. It kinda stings when I compare right now to a few years ago, to see how much I've degraded.

Moving right along...

I'm the most biased, grudge-bearing, self-centered, apathetic asshole you'll ever meet. Or, I would be if I didn't spend 90% of my energy keeping that demonic side of me supressed. If I didn't resist posting "You're an idiot" or "Get out of digibutter already, retard" or stuff like that, I'd probably have the highest post count out of everyone right now, not to mention hundreds of strikes piled up.

What else... I have a tendency to take common flaws with myself and put myself in such a state of mind that it's the worst thing possible for a person to have. On more than one occasion, I've made a long, emotional confession only to have the person/people I'm talking to stare at me like I'm and idiot and say "It's no big deal". My best theory for this is that, when I was young and smarter than most people (Like I said before), I kinda got myself thinking I was perfect, or at least in some way. After that, every little flaw took away from my perfection and it became a huge deal. All subconcious, I'll remind you. I'm much farther away from perfection than most people in this world. D:



Now, over the last few years, I've kinda felt a "deep" side of me come out. Instead of spending my time throwing pencils across the room and screaming "WHEEEEE" in the hallway, I sit in my chair, head on my arms, resting on the table thinking about how insignificant I really am in the entire universe and crap. Which pretty much spawned my emo side, which dominates me most of the time now.

And I think I have some mental disorder that makes me think other people care about anything in my blog entries, but I'm fine with that, because I get a coin for half an hour of typing.

Now, on digibutter...

I kinda see myself as the lowest in the pecking order here, since about everyone is more awesome than me here except the people who "mak entros lik ths an xpect 2 gt in". Which is kinda sad for a human being.

I'd love to be demodded, since the only real advantages are that people always put you in their comics and stuff and give you major roles, but all the reports and stuff you have to deal with every day is NOT fun. there's no graceful way to lose your moderator position. You go crazy and spam the place? Everyone hates you. You politely request to resign? Everyone thinks you're a coward. Not to mention how understaffed we are right now. So... I'll be keeping this position for a while yet.

And I know there's over 9000 more words worth of stuff I've been meaning to type down here, but I forgot already. So with that... THE BLOG ENTRY DISAPPEARS LIKE A NINJA.

[Fancy Wario]