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[Almaz]

the negativity levels...they're OVER 9000!!!*shot*

That make anyone feel better? Hope so, because I can't stand this. I see people, fighting tooth-and-nail for their beliefs. For joy. For the joy of others. And then, they collide, causing a conflict. And you know, that conflict is okay. It's a necessary arguement...for richer or for poorer, all involved in it end up emotionally wealthy.

...and then, a new challenger approaches...

It invades the sanctity of the arguement with one big smack to the face. It reminds you of the pain festered inside, dragging you down under the waves of depression until both are lost, gasping for air as their souls are dragged appart, still in conflict yet in so much more grief. It's madness! It's awful. It's hell, even!

...it's killing me.

And rather literally at that. I'm all for opinions. I'm all for arguements. There's nothing I love more than a wonderful performance, two sides fighting against the odds in a nonviolent climactic clash. Emotions are realized, and the lessons learned always overcome the pain. To me, THAT is a symbol of heaven. What the world is meant to be like. How spirits are made and angels sing.

But no. Assholes, flamers, and idiots...they're invading my ideals, and the hopes and dreams of others. I don't want to speak for those people, it just doesn't fit with my morales, so I'll say it from my heart.

Emotionally, I'm very frail. I'm a brittle, crusty general trying to make a stand. And I've been all over the wall with my emotions - when my family member, who was the pillar of strength for the entire family, was dying, I never shed a tear nor had a single awful thought for a year. I've been cynical, demented, whiny, optomistic...anything you can pull out of your emotional crayon box, I've been that. Even that suicidal color that people pull out. Maybe not stoned or drunk color, though, haven't done those, hope not to. So please, I'm old and experienced, don't you young hotshots knock me over.

So, what I'm saying is...thanks, everyone, for making digibutter a great place. CD, Nastasia, Frozenwinters, O'Chunks, Goomba, occasionally Larry Koopa, Popple, Jolene, Sandslash...I know I missed a few, but I'm a bit tired and pain hangs heavy over my shoulders right now. Thank you all so much...your efforts, emotions, and caring really make this world a better place to live in. I am eternally in your debt for the lessons learned from you all.

And to you others, those of you who try to help but end up taking one side and slandering the other, throwing salt into every wound (I'm sure everyone knows who I'm talking about) *crag* off. Because if you don't...I dunno...I could really drop any second, I feel.

Thank you all for listening to my rant, even when this drama is filling the air. I hope you all enjoyed today's presentation. Exit at either the giant Tippi Icon, the general discussion exit, the toolbar, or the reply button. Have a wonderful day here at digibutter, where I hope to make someone's life digibetter someday.

[Francine]

I'm not going to get myself caught into that issue. I have a stance (I think...), but it's too far into the debate. Parts of my stance have probably been already presented and stuff. It's just too messy, and I hate arguments.

[Almaz]

*sigh* I'm just feeling so awful right now...no one can just discuss things. We always have to go to war, sending an endless barrage of deadly verbal missiles at each other until TSSG3 wins with his diety-like powers.

I'm honestly thinking about ending my life...again...whoo...who cares...just another emo...nothing special...he'll get over it...whatever...

You guys are like a family to me...my best friends. Seeing all of you in pain...it's just tearing me appart. I'm burning...my entire body is burning, yet I feel so cold. I...I...I don't know what to do anymore.

Please...I'm begging...help?

[Super Postman]

Don't you DARE

suicide is NEVER the answer okay?

I can hold my Own.... don't worry about me. alright... people will hate me, flame me, hurt me.... all these things, I can take it, all of it... I may retaliate but I can take it.

I'm sorry... if I caused a ruckus....

[Almaz]

It's not your fault. You posted your heart, and people jumped on it and tore it appart like vultures on a fresh carcass.

And...wha point would I have? I'm just being an attention whore, I'm too disorganized to ever make anything of myself, too clumsy to ever get anyone to care for me, too self-centered to give something to humanity...

...and my one hope here is breaking appart.

[Frozenwinters]

Don't feel suicidal over something like this. ;; It was just a little argument, we got our feelings out. You should be happy about that.

-hug- >_>

[Almaz]

Heh...I'm not worthy of a hug. I'm happy that some of you got your emotions out, but then others...

...it burnt. It split. It caused chaos. I feel awful. I'm burning. I'm freezing. I'm shaking. My thoughts are somewhere between maniacal and emo. And...the only thing keeping me going is a faint ray of hope...and it's dimming...

[Miku Hatsune]

Ahahaha ho? Suicide is never the answer to anything! You would be an even bigger fool than Count Bleck if you did commit suicide...

[Tails Doll]

Mr.I, if there's one thing we can all agree on, no matter what, it's that suicide is not the option. The fissure it brings cannot be fixed, for many people who know you. Also, suicide is selfish. Very, very selfish. If you wish to remove yourself intentionally, just remember there are people who are your friends, and people who love you, just remember you're not going back once you decide to end yourself. Hang on to that vine. You've been a really good friend, Mr.I, and you've been good friends with many others. If you remove yourself, there is not a single way you'll be forgiven. But it was just an argument, as Frozenwinters said, so, well, let's have fun! It's the Star Carnival right here, and it's not moving.

[Mona]

I'm tired of it, too. One person gets negative, and that mades someone else negative, and it continues. I guess I got caught in it...But we all have reasons to be upset, some of us just don't think that they're really upsetting, and another person would think that what happened to them was a super-horrible thing.

It also upsets me that whenever someone says something, there's always someone there ready to flame it. Let people have their own *crag* opinions. If you don't like their opinions, don't even bother saying anything, because you'll only end up making people upset.

It's okay if you get into a conflict, but saying "YOUR OPINIONS SUCK." or "GTFO"? Not a healthy argument. At least be rational if you're going to debate against someone's opinion. Also, if you're being flamed, then don't say "NO YOU'RE WRONG!". Tell them WHY. Come on, people. It's possible to make a post that's showing someone doing something wrong WITHOUT flame.

For example...

Let's say you think Guest spams and flames too much.

Bad Response: Guest...You spam and flame WAY to much. No one on Digibutter should like you, because you don't do ANYTHING to support Digibutter!

Good Response: Hey, Guest? I think you should try cutting down on some spam. Sure, you make some good posts, but a lot of them are just random spam, they usually aren't really on-topic. So...it's okay to be random, but don't get too over your head. Also, I think you're kind of harsh when coming back at someone. Before you submit your posts, look over them. Remember that there's a person like you behind the computer, and they might be very sensitive. Even if you REALLY hate them, try to remember that everyone has flaws!

Don't just point out flaws, be rational about them. Maybe show examples of times they've spammed or flamed, but give reasons on WHY their spam or flame. Don't call names, either, that only pisses people off. Before you submit a post, look at it, and think about if someone posted that about YOU. If it's bad and you post it anyways, at least you'll know what to expect. Also, if you're pointing out something, then tell them how they could FIX their problem.

Also, Mister I, please, don't blame yourself. Everyone contributes something negative once in a while, and sometimes it might be hard for someone to see someone else's opinions get out. They night not really like their opinions, and are hurt by them...but you have to keep moving on. It's hard, and I know that. Because I've been in too many situations...but I always find some way to move on. You just have to realize you can't change the world in one day, you can't just change everyone by wishing they'll change...people are independent. They want to be themselves...and expressing their opinions, however harsh or sad, is just the way life goes. You just can't break down. You've got to stay strong, keep moving, and don't look back, because you can't change anything about it. be who you are...and don't let anyone tear you down.

I've learned that quite well in my 13 years {{and 3/4 :3}}, so if I can learn to get rid of the pain, and stay solid, then anyone can. It's hard, I know, and it's easier said than done. But just don't give in...fight for YOUR opinion...and let go of the negativity. Let go of the pain and sorrow. You don't have to be optimistic and happy, but that doesn't mean you have to be gloomy and hopeless.

Just take a little introspection, some faith and hope, a pinch of blissful ignorance, desire & strength, and a dash of who you are, and you can make it through anything.

...

Yeah.

I write too much. :<

[Almaz]

I know, but...

...there's like a 99% chance I won't kill myself at this point, but I'm so selfish none of that really matters. I'm just...so selfish. So self-centered. It burns me...more than anything.

I...just dunno where to go from here. Do I just stare into a screen in agony? Do I try to calm myself? I can't leave this place...I am physically unable to. There's some sort of attachment to this place...I feel in pain when I'm not on.

[Mona]

[Tails Doll]

Well, Mr.I, we're here to back you up. Francis could help with any members who are giving you a crazy hard time, so relax. Mona gave some pretty good advice there, just faith, hope, abit of blissful ignorance, desire, and who you are, and maybe a little help from your friends, that's all you need to make it through.

[Almaz]

Thank you Mona...but I really don't deserve your walls of text. I've adored every last one, but this one for me...it just is unnecessary.

I really don't want anything. I just want other people to have bonds and be happy. I honestly don't care what happens to me on this site, I just want people to be happy. And yet, I am the most self-centered moron IRL...

I'm just a pathetic being. I honestly shouldn't have you all involved in these problems, and I'm sorry. You already have enough on your plate, and I'm basically just being overkill. I'm so awful...

[Tails Doll]

It's okay, Mr.I.