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[Super Maiq the Liar]

I have decided to tell you all about how I became who I am now. Yes, I do realize that your views of me are likely to change, but I feel like I should say this.

It all started over 5 years ago...when I first joined BYOND. The joining wasn't important, but what my brother did after a few months was: He began making a game. How is this important? His game was the stage for much of the drama that ensued later. He began work on his game, 'Builders Ultimate'(currently named 'Builders Fantasy') and it quickly gathered steam.

More people began to join, people who quickly became my friends. We played the game almost every day, chatting, building, and just messing around with each other, until I eventually got the idea to make a space map. I made a map in the game full of stars and whatnot and created a space station(a cheap remake of the Pillar of Autumn) for roleplaying purposes. It kept us occupied for hours each day, running around the space station, acting like soldiers and the like. Now, the person I would like to focus on was the one called Neo-Sora, who I considered to be like my best friend. I trusted her very much, and she helped me through alot of real-life troubles I had at the time(I was paranoid at the time). She was one of the people who played with me and the rest of my friends in the space map.

Among my friends who frequented, there were also others I trusted. Marx, Ham-Ham, Pat.

As I came to realize, all good things must come to an end. After months of playing, everything just stopped. Neo-Sora, Marx, and Ham-ham vanished. Pat and the rest of my friends changed. Most of the people I cared for have either left or have become assholes.

It was devastating. I felt a little more dead on the inside every time one of them changed. I could find nothing to solace myself, I began to lose sleep, wondering why they changed.(I suppose at this point, you could say I was getting a bit emo)

I began to hide it, I tried to hide my emotions in the future, but that turned out to be impossible.

Now ignoring a long while of game-playing and messing around, I'll go to the next part of the story. Things began going again about two years later. I took a particular liking to more people, two of which were KirbyDude and Tigerham, who quickly became my friends. Eventually, they began playing the game like my friends from two years ago did. I felt like I was reliving the old days once again. This went on and off for several months, which was fine by me. Then, yet another metamorphasis. They became girlfriend and boyfriend and KirbyDude began acting like an ass to me.

So they left. I didn't care much, since they began ignoring me. But I did feel a little bad for treating them harsh like they were treating me. So again, we'll travel in time to November '05, as this was another point that made me change.

Neo-Sora returned to BYOND, and I was glad to be there to greet her. We both began playing My Life As A Spy, and we began to catch up with what had happened over two and a half years. Things were fine again, we helped eachother out the best we could(although I helped her more, being a Rank 20 Spy. ). If you really need an example of how much we helped each other, I sat in an enemy base for 20 minutes (in disguise, mind you) waiting for a particular item to appear that she needed to complete a mission. After I got it, we booby trapped the base and watched all the green people go boom.

So we continued playing, every day of each weekend. I heard of a guy who buys TP and gives out game mamberships, so I decided to round up the 5000TP to buy her one so she can reach Rank 20. After waking up early that morning, I spent about 5 hours, doing nonstop doc-runs, to gather the 5000TP required. I wait for both her and the guy who gives out the memberships, and neither showed up. 'Perhaps today isn't a good day' I thought. Thanksgiving came and went, and I checked into MLAAS every day I could to see if she was there. She never was. I felt a little more of myself die on the inside the longer I waited. Eventually I just left.

I grew tired of it, I quit BYOND, hoping to never return. That is, until later, when I convinced my friends at Topicgeddon to come try it out. Expecting it to be nothing but a short show, I showed them BYOND, and we played some games. To my surprise, they wanted to stay. Although, it was short lived. One of our members decided to turn into a troll and spam every game we tried playing(although as of now, he isn't a troll anymore). Most of them left, some stayed and only play certain games sometimes. Thankfully, I felt unaffected by this turn of events this time, as I had the feeling they would be driven away.

I couldn't bring myself to leave BYOND again. I was once again addicted. I eventually joined a forum for a 360 game I liked, and came up with an idea for a fangame. After some short work, I announced it to the [game] forum, and my, were they excited. One of the employees who worked at [company] actually took notice in this, and was interested in seeing it when it is ready for testing.(Sadly, the game has been on hold for a month)

And then comes Digibutter. The one you know as Luvbi put a link to this place in his sig on another forum, and I was immediatly taken in. As time has gone on in this forum, I have grown a similar attatchment as I have in the past to several members here, but I never realized it until a few days ago.

It was actually thanks to those who were playing BYOND with me the past two days that made me realize it. After playing with Gearz, Piccolo, and Luvbi, I remembered how good it felt to play games with people you cared for. And I feel that same feeling towards them all that I felt towards my friends so many years ago...

...now my only hope is that things can stay this way.

And there you have it. Now you know a bit of M'aiq's past with the internet, and know somewhat about why he may act the way he does. Yes, M'aiq realizes he is overdramatic, but that is a part of him, and there is nothing he can do to change that.


Thank you for reading this, and M'aiq understands very well that you may not view him the same way again, and he will accept that.

[rawrskey]

I remembered how good it felt to play games with people you cared for

Fundamentals of gaming.


and MAiq... these things you described were not things you should be ashamed of, and anyone that thinks of you differently because of it is just an idiot. You had a little drama in your past... everyone's entitled to drama, and everyone's entitled to get that drama off their chest.

anyway... I won't think any less of you, or see you differently. I don't do that to people. chances are at least one person might, however...

[Super ShadowArticuno]

I don't think any different of you. That sounds a lot like things that have happened to me in real life.

[Tails Doll]

Why would I think different of you? The exact same thing happened to me 2 years ago, but with different people and places. It's not how I found Digibutter, though.

[Brobot L-Type]

Eh, I don't really look at you any different because of it. Heck, I don't really much care what anyone's done in the past, so long as they're fine in the present, which I'd definitely say you are, M'aiq.

[Super Maiq the Liar]

Thanks...

[X-Naut, Johnston]

[Super Maiq the Liar]

...thank you all...but there is still one thing I have not said.

...but I am too afraid to say it...

[X-Naut, Johnston]

[yoshimitz707]

Lol at thinking you can make friends online.

[Super Maiq the Liar]

[Sting Chameleon]

i dont get it

[Luvbi]

[X-Naut, Johnston]

[Pure-???]